hhas. juz came back home frm cindy's bday celeb. time seems to fly wheneva friens gather tgt. haix. tml onwards, life's gonna b sian n hopeless to me all ovr again. nth to look forward to n nth to wish for. haix haix. hav decided to blog here cos i wanted a feel of bein involved in e world's affairs. alrite. i'm exaggeratin again. hahs. anw. i haven been updatn my MS Diary. nt minsi diary btw.
hmms. today's kind of a disappointment to me. cindy commented tt i looked emo durin e dinner. hahs. actually my 1st thought was, "i emo meh??" cos i wasnt feelin emo exactly. okk. mayb one cant feel emo. emo isnt a feelin. ok wadeva. but anw. i'm really okk juz tt too many things r runnin thru my mind at tt point of time. plus, i'm weak at facial expressions. hahs. so i tend to distort my face at e wrong time. hmms. anw. i tot i was more straightforward in e past compared to now. i noe tt when e entire gp hangs out tgt, some may feel kind of left out owin to lack of common topics. i'm tryin hard to engage everyone in some common topic but it's kind of difficult. n sometimes, ppl don understand n e result is things get worse. or mayb it is me w e prob. mayb no one really bothers bout it afterall. oh wells. ah. DISAPPOINTMENT. i dono whether i hid it well juz nw. but i really feel disappointed at how vulnerable alot of things can b sometimes. r materials really more impt than sth tt can nv b measured? if today's celebration wasnt meant for cindy, i'm tokin bout if, then e ppl feelin disappointed wldnt only b me. nah. i don tink i'm pek chek or irritated, i tink i'm juz simply too disappointed. it's nt a matter of difference in characters, but a matter of principles.
sometimes i wish i can stop tinkin for a moment. i'm scared tt i will become a deep person though i noe it's quite imposs to happen. alot of ppl may appear blur or innocent on e outlook, but on a closer look, nah u've been cheated. yea, e more plain u r, e more unpredictable n complicated u may b. sorry tt i cant stand tis kind of character. i noe tt ppl hav diff character n their flaws, juz lyk i hav my own, but juz lyk wat a frien of mine once said, "i try to do e best for my friens". n i believe she really tried her best. tt's friendship, for real n for life.
minsi
p.s mayb some things r better when they r left unspoken. mayb.