Well, it is not i who don't want to be make a firm decision. But, w/o their supports, it seems that i am forcing them to let me stay. I am so pissed off at that person. Just by reading a book you think you seem to know everything and refuse to believe what the professional said. Well, if that is the case then anyone can just cure themselves by reading a book. You are not a god, ok?! So what if u're at a much higher seniority than me? U still shld not impose ur thinking on me. I wont and dont believe in whatever you said. To my utter disappointment, the other person who has a higher seniority than me but lower than Person A also agree completely with person A. Nah, of course la.. Or else he will lose his rice bowl. It is just like rubbing salt on my deep wounds. So I am really at a loss and don't know what to do. I also do not want this to happen, ok? I do not pray to the god everyday and ask Him/ Her to give me an illness. I was withdrawing from reality at that period of time. What do you expect if u cant even watch a 7pm television for a number of days? You cant even follow the the characters' emotion, the story's lines...You cant even play a com game. When you are playing a fighting game, you also cant follow the movements of the character, not to say competing with the oppenent.. What's more when you cant response well to people talking to you. It was a loss of complete concentration with deteriorating memory..A period of anxiety and fear..With stress from external situation, the stress level was up to the max where stress became fear..to the extent that you couldnt even bear to hear the tick-tock sound of the clock that you took down the clock and removed the batteries. With voices in your head all day long, your head is almost bursting with blood which is the same meaning as sitting on the inverter for more than a day. With insufficient funds to go to other places and no support to stay, the future is bleak.
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