HAI. ok its gonna sounds abit lame larr. but i really do find maple depressin nw. cos of my guild. as in well, she quitted cos some of us wanted 2 quit. so he told her 2 quit. tt kind of thing. but things werent same as b4. ended up he quitted too. when ideals r diff thr's no pt hangin on. yea, i agree tt we do learn frm each other though its only a game. tt's a kind of ppl i wana meet in maple. mature, nt childish type who only learn how 2 ks/raid maps. or speak vulgarities. i tot she was e type of demandin sort whom i wld despise. arrogant lyk many hav said? but y wld such a nice him take her as maple sis. but nw my doubts r cleared. e ans is simple. cos their ideals, their objectives, their goals r similar. guild is when a gp of ppl gather 2 achieve common aims. so y force him 2 stay when he no longer finds purpose in stayin. we do wan him 2 stay on, but definitely nt 4 us. n yea, we do respect him more than e ldr. mayb tt's our fault too. e ldr is nt informed of all these. but e ldr has made a wrong move tt time. out of ambition. attitude beats altitude, nt e other way round. anw, rite nw, i'm so gonna tink bout my life seriously. alot of things, i do realise, nid moderation. i don wana find it a mess e day i died.
so much when i wanted freedom. i decided 2 give it all up but nw i realise it has nv left me. i was juz lyin 2 myself. all tt sort of stuffs. but nw i realise how gd it is 2 b free by myself. i hate gdbyes. juz lyk wat has happened in maple. esp those whom u r really close 2. i respect those who r able 2 provide gd solutions 2 everythin, those who r able 2 make me feel secure, those with a tinge of humour tt is enuff 2 brighten up my day. i nid vibrant ppl in my life. ppl lyk my colleagues nw? i wld rather leave ppl's life than hav ppl leavin mine. tt's selfish i noe. but i cant stand sayin gdbyes 2 ppl whom i cant stop frm leavin. i rather b e xiao sa 1 n leave. e only memory was e jump quest. his words still remained vividly in my mind. tt was e day he left a deep memory in me. even nw i cld almost picture him sayin those words again. but again, its only a game. its virtual. tt's secondary though. primary thing is 2 clarify all my doubts in my life nw. wat char? wat kind of life? wat goals? b realistic. don defy e original purpose cos u'll end up nowhere. thnx 4 teachin me tt. tt's 1 valuable lesson i'm nv gonna 4get. jiayou bahx minsi =))
n ya, b4 i leave. i juz wana thnx my colleagues 4 brightenin up my day. all e humour. despite e exhaustive work n discouragin comments i wld get @ times, i still feel fortunate 2 hav gotten tis job cos nw, i'm clearer bout orchard routes n hav become more confident in speakin 2 foreigners. n most imptly, its my honour 2 hav meet fun ppl in my life. =)) ty
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