1stly, muz apologise 4 nt goin kbox n cip... haix. tis week kinda don feel lyk goin out. tt kind of "yi xing lan shan". i juz cant shut e thought of hw out of my mind. anw i finally went 2 e bunk with my bro. haha. 1st time n its quite fun. =)). o well.. anw. my blog can end here le. e rest is of utmost insignificance.
anw. rainy season is here n it has been rainin n drizzlin since days ago. v.cold larr. i can even shiver on e bus w/o my jkt. hmms. whr's my hot steamy char siew bun?? haha. tis is nt random k... haii. tot i found tis bun but nw i'm startin 2 doubt whether its virtual afterall. my pri sch thought was so simple back then. but such a simple thought wld nv hav become reality. yepp so i gave up waitin. time is such an intriguin thing. we cant ctrl it but it's able 2 ctrl us, our every thought, every move @ every min, every sec. keep in contact 3 mths l8er. indirectly it means "4get me". well ya, how highly he tot of himself. 3 mths is too long. human mind works in a fascinatin way. 1st day, u'll weep till ur tears can almost fill a bucket. 1st week, u'll feel super down, as if u'll nv b happy again. thr's such a deep hole in ur heart n it juz seems 2 grow bigger everyday. but. after tt week, colours fill ur world once more. not only do happiness n joy appear again, ur life becomes even more vibrant. u learn thru failures. thus i believe time is a jolly effective remedy. time has cured my confusion n uncertainty. nw i'm sure. i shld hav stayed by my original principles n nt get influenced so easily. although it's only a few wks, my job has shown me alot of things. 4 eg, i wld hav tot tt walkin alone along places lyk orchard road or tampines mall seems kinda weird, as if u r ostracized by e world. but nw, i find myself lookin forward 2 e times when i wld walk along e crowded n bz street alone. e way freedom wld b. i told my jc frien tt e other day. he said tt he wld hav preferred alone in a quiet place. but tt wld nt hav been my kind. i wanted solo, but in a crowded area. i prefer nite, cos it simply enhances e beauty of e bustlin city life. rmbed few mths ago, i was still lookin forward 2 walkin along tt route juz outside esplanade, but nt alone. it wld hav been so sweet 2 walk hand in hand while e occasional bands juz played on. e time had been rite once, but e person wasnt. so i juz look forward, occasionally imaginin wat wld happen if my wish comes true. it nv happen anw, n perhaps even more so in e future. cos i wld rather walk alone on tt long path nw. if i say i'm sick of waitin, its actually nt v.true afterall. cos anyone wld hav been willlin 2 wait no matter how long it takes. it's e case of change of perception frm my pt of view.
haha. so long. hmms. these thoughts alwaz occupy my mind durin a long bus ride home. cos mayb too tired but cant slp yea. n ya, its time i start usin my brain instead of e usual "don tink bout it". go go jia you bahx =))
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