okk. nt sure whether all of u did well tis time. but so far me n sh were nt really satisfied with our results... simply feel lyk swearin @ it lar. but yea, nt 2 e extent of vulgarity bahz. anw. its seriously sick lar. mon was lyk e hell day 4 me. n my eyes were simply swollen throughout e day lo. abit paiseh 2 say tt i actually cried 3 times lar. tot i cld really hold my tears but most unfortunately my frien called me n my tears juz gushed out w/o waitin 4 my brain 2 signal a "yes". wth. so i lost it all =(
i had most confidence in bio. n i had been imaginin myself receivin great results 4 it since i finished e paper. it was nt tt i knew how 2 do but juz tt i put it alot of effort in it, @ least much more than e rest... but it still ended up with me as 1 of e bottom few. e class list with marks written on it was passed around. i felt damn depressed n sad lar. suddenly my brain was lyk " omg.. omg.. m i seein things or wat?!?! i was practically so stunned" but regardless of how unwillin i was 2 accept tis fact, e truth remains. yea. so 4 e whole day, even after i went home, i juz went straight 2 my bed n cried. n i stopped cryin nt bcos i was ok, but simply cos my tears dried up... its juz a super sad feelin but i cld no longer cry it out. e rest of e subj didnt really meet my expectation as well. but well @ least my maths n chem improve by 2 grades, while econs remains lyk mid yr, juz tt i improve 5 marks. overall guess i made an improvement bahz, juz tt i didnt reap wat i sowed. wats most disheartenin is when u heard ppl sayin things tt hurt. its nt exactly pinpoint @ u but in a way, its v.sore 2 e ears of someone who did badly despite givin 100% of efforts. so ytd, i was mentally n physically tired. i only pray 4 my gp 2 pass so i don get retained.
sh, somehow i tink we tried our best n tt's all it matter. one of my friens did quite well.. but she's still complainin bout her results n worryin bout it. i nv really console her, cos i tot i shld b e one 2 b consoled... but afterall wats thr 2 console when u tried ur best but dint make it?? shld it b lyk "try harder nxt time lo." (but tis is ur best le isnt it?? wat can b better??) yea.. so mayb we did our rev e wrong way bahz. lets all "Go Go Jia You". cos i tink we've nt fully exploited our potential n i believe we'll improve further e nxt yr.
minsi.
[temasek--resilience spirit] JY
