Sunday, October 29, 2006
ok... today met up with sh. wah thnx thnx!!! i really had a pw lecture today lo. n my lecturer was e pro ms koh. LOL. nw i finally understood wat u meant by 'childish' e other time. 2 tink i was quite satisfied. hmm. ok anw will edit my slides again. though its kinda sian n tirin cos i don really wana go all e way 2 my frien's hse, but 4 e sake of "mktin director", i'll do it. (abit no link. nvm if u all don understand.) ya, n i'm sure i wld feel more confident tis time round. =Psimply tired lar. but still hav 2 go 2 e web 2 check it out. yesterday had 2 dreams. shit lo. kept dreamin of ghosts etc... tis few days. v.scary. but e 2nd dream was nice.. n i lyk it. haha. k gtg. hope 2 finish summarisin my i&r tonite =)ms.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
aiyoh!!!!! ksh. go find a color tt reps u best lar. otherwise u'll get mistaken 4 either me or lame lar. funny man. anw. although i oso disapprove of ur leader, but i muz say tt its better than those who push e blame 2 u. rather those who claim ur credit than those who make u take up e blame lo. anw. @ least u learn sth rite? relax. can almost feel ur anger LOL. aiyo. today. so many of u bz sia. lame go watch movie. sh go take pics. my frien oso goin out with his friens. so after tt hoax op, i went out with my jc pals. LOL. we spent 1-2 hrs in 1 shop!!! n i can nv 4get tt Dorothy Perkins shop @ PP. haha. my 1st experience. 2 of my friens were tryin out e sizes n designs while e other 2 n me were in charge of bringin their clothes 4 'em. hah. i feel lyk a shop assistant. quite fun lar. actually i realise tt helpin ppl bring clothes oso quite interestin lehh. hahaa. juz tt its v.tirin after tt. hmm... today OP was a hoax lo. but we still practised in our class lar. as in peer mark. wah seh... all my fears n worries came true. i kind of babble my way thru again, shift my weight frm left 2 right n vice versa n did nt make eye contact. i woke up lyk 7am tis morn n practise with slides 8 times lo!!!! but when i went up, my heart pumped so hard till i cld almost hear it lar. lucky my legs didnt shiver. but i kept leanin on either leg. i tried 2 look @ my classmates lar. but its lyk when i attempt 2 do so, my mind wld blank out n i wld 4get wat i was goin 2 say. i ended up tryin desperately 2 find my line amidst e lines of words on my paper. HAI x1000000000 aiyo. tml is e filmin thing leh. i'm sooooo worried n scared lo. wats more is tt we're goin 2 join another class tml. scared i'll mess things up n get e ppl 2 mock @ me la. aiyo. y in e world muz pw b implemented. shit. of all things, i hate 2 do public speakin most lo. anw. i've decided 2 heck bout e rest of e audience n juz look @ my tcher tml. muz try 2 make eye contact with her since she's e person i'm supposed 2 impress anw.ok lar. hav 2 go mug bio. cya peeps. minsi(o btw, i realise thr's alot of spies here. mayb we shld change e blog soon.)
wah..just came back from a gym centre to take some pic for op...sian...today's morning really s**!!
a mixture of feelings due to thg related to OP...
my class had 1st OP rehearsal today in a classroom..only 3 out of 5 grp presented cos the other 2 are not ready. my grp is the 2nd grp. i am the 4th speaker, presenting the entire proposal 2: enjoying and benefitting frm TAF club..a sick and rather sensitive issue to certain ppl..
I was nervous. I dono y i cant stop being nervous. the heart just pumps faster. hate it. i presented proposal 2 too fast until i swallowed and mispronouncing some of the words. Part of the reason is becos i am nervous and another part is that i don have sufficient time. think i need to cut down a bit and talk slower. in the middle of my presentation, a major error occured. i dono how my frens click cos my script and the slides didn't correspond. so i had to stop and press the slides to where i had said.. pissed off..
the happy part is tt my gp cher aka pw ST like the slides except tt there are lack of pics. i was happy to hear tt cos all except 1 slide design is done by me.. but, the sad part began when my cher went to the front of the classroom and made his comments... in short he said tt 1st and 3rd speaker's slide designs were good... they were done by me... i didn know this can boost ur marks or stg like good impression..abit wad like giving mark away to my grp member yet i knew the slide design for my part was so so..den, cher also mention stg tt my script and slides sort of not telly... i did check it was telly unless maybe my frens edited wrongly... the most angry part is tt when my cher asked who did the slides... GUESS WHAT THE SLACKER LEADER SAID WITHOUT SHOWING ANY SIGN OF GUILT..HE SAID "EVERYONE DID TGT." I WAS THINKING MY FOOT. MY FOOT... THE BEAUTIFUL SLIDES DESIGNS WERE CREDITED TO THIS SLACKER WHO DIDN CONTRIBUTE MUCH..YET, HE WAS TELLING ME..COME ON, THIS WAS OUR PROJECT....TELLING ME HE WAS RIGHTFUL TO LIE CHER...GOOD LA.. I HATE HIM.. NOW, I HAD TO GO AND BRUSH UP MY OWN SLIDES. I BOTHER TO HELP THEM WITHOUT EVEN A WORD"THANKS." AND WO CHER KNOWING OR ANY CREDIT...AND WHAT I GAIN WAS TT MY SLIDES WERE DISCREDITED.....WHY?
when the slacker leader and i was abt to leave sch..we met kwek(pw ST)..he told me tt my grp slides are the best among his 2 classes..great lol...as if i got stg
i cant log in animationfactory..sian.. some grp are using it...when will they get out so i can get in...cos there is only one account...platinum membership...haha
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
okok. wah i gt fan sia. hahaha. but i don wan 2 b tt kind of idol plsssss. who wan 2 mug lo. bleh. but no choice lar. i don wan hist 2 repeat itself. anw. gt some news 4 u all... regardin me. but hor i'll wait till all r confirmed b4 i'll tell u all. ya. all i can say is tt lets juz go out together when we hav time nw.aiya. OP REHEARSAL TML!!!! i v.scared n worried. cos tml thr'll b some filmin.. scared i'll tremble n stutter all e way. either tt or i'll start laughin lar. aiya. still combinin class with other ppl. sh** tml sure die liao.n. i finally solve e mystery!!!! hah. fun sia. bia thru today. but i cheated abit lar. cos i kept doin e wrong things or gettin stuck. funny lar. but its really fun. n my frien said i can lend both e shows n tis game. so ya, lets meet up soon bahz =Phc, rmb 2 lend me e angel n demon bk hor. aiya. tink i dragged damn long le. haha. paiseh. but tis time will sure finish.ms"when e sun shines n e moon slps. " quoted frm e game. if rmbed correctly. zan4!!!!
yoz..again at "library @ meridian"..the best place ever in sch..was watching movie-"Mr and Mrs Smith" less than halfway (at the beginning)...the fun part was starting yet one of my grp member went into the discussion room to tell me to meet kwek for op..sian.. in the end, kwek isn't free and we have to meet him tml-_-" so, i went back. I couldn't find my frens! I realised that they were in the project roon..lol..guess wad?! they were chased out because my frens and I book the wrong discussion room.(there were 2 discussion room in the library-one has TV and video player;one doesn't have anything except table and comfortable cushion chairs)...so this is why i in the project room typing!quite humid although it is air-conditioned cos there are many ppl in here..
ok... ms, u can be my mugging idol... teach me some tactics of how and why u can start so early... really.. u power, gal!!
the library rox....state of the art facilities=p
sh..
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
somehow today took a super long ride home cos i finally bought stef album!!! haiz. actually i tot i was quite stupid lar. aiya. don feel lyk mentionin details. anw. took 28 frm toa payoh all e way back home. can imagine how long rite. my frien didnt really slp but i slpt mostly so yea, dint really find e trip long afterall.
hey i discovered a nice song. lyrics quite sweet n e whole song was juz so nice. hah. so juz keep replayin it nw lo. its "ai dao" by e fahrenheit. i tink its nicer than e xia xue.
actually while i was watchin e channel newsasia i alrdy planned on wat 2 blog le lo. somehow i wanted 2 confess sth here today. actually i took quite some time 2 decide lar. but sth happened again. n i gt dong yao again. so nvm.
5 things i hate most.
1) being accused
2) being lied 2
3) being forced 2 do sth
4) being reminded 2 study (esp by my mum)
5) when ppl fu yan me
when 1 get disappointed too many times, i wonder wat will happen?? wat is e limit 2 disappointment?? e worst thing i've gotten so far has juz happened nt long ago. i picked myself up. i realise i can b independent. n i realise e person whom u hope 2 rely on when u nid it most may nt alwaz b thr in reality. ytd i nearly gt lost. its scary lo. wonder y when with my friens i'll appear 2 b smarter but when alone, i alwaz gt lost easily. life hor.
ms
Sunday, October 22, 2006
ok. b4 i keep procrastinatin.network:elaine---> hc ---> sarah ---> hq ---> ms ---> sh ---> connie ---> cindyhey i lost my class pic leh. gimme more time. i go find ah. tsk. yea man. finally found ppl to watch death note with me. hehn. my frien sent me e real life love story of lee hom. dono u all heard b4.. but its kinda touchin. anw. shld i buy stef album?!?! tink by e time i decide it'll b outdated le lar. aiyoh. if i buy 2 albums at a go, i'll immediately declare bankrupt lo. bleh. wat a diff choice.hmm. lol. i juz told my frien tt my heart's elastic. can fit in so many ppl @ a go. n yea, its a weird thing but i cant help it too. i lyk more n more ppl but cant get rid of e old ones too. er.. wait a min, i wont wan JY 2 disappear frm my life anw. haha. he still rox.ms =)juz realised i've been isolated frm chinese media 4 a loong time. but nvm, nw tryin 2 catch up. hehe
Saturday, October 21, 2006
ok, ms! i shall use another colour! A colour tt will you make never forget.lol. The reason why i chose purple colour is because i think that it is the nicest of all the given colour. Most of you are singing now, right? As for me, I am "happily" blogging. Thanks to the 3-4 ulcers!!com laggy..shall stop here..=(
Friday, October 20, 2006
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will be gg to sch later to submit wr then do op(slow rite? but just take out from wr with accuracy and professionalism)so having a good wr can really cut down the work once u include visual aids and of course solid devt, benefits and proposals...
I saw a project related to dyslexic yesterday night. It was stunning cos the presentation looks professional..and it was done by sec 2 kids from HCI with the guidance of mentor... I also realised tt most ppt slides tt i saw in the past was actually quite childish (referring to the layouts, not the texts) OP is a killer..I will have my op on the 8th of Nov. (hope to make the audiences and judges believe in my grp project-Robust Singapore) ROBUST, ROBUST, ROBUST..GO, GO, GO........
The first 2 para are all abt pw...
nxt, it is about the attack of the Korean waves...all the songs related to goong REALLY rox.. caijing is cute..the male actors not bad too..btw, did u all know that all these are cultural invasion(wen hua qing lue)? Sin does not have the foresight to invest in this $$$-making market...tt is why our SM said "haiz..." [ learn from gsc=p] imparting knowlegde to all of u..haha
Is nxt week the last week of sch? lol..I 4 get even though i asked chan b4...STMgonna do intensive CIP this holi to attain the highest lvl(outstanding voluteer) sound bad tt cip is abt planning..but, it is just like that unless you afford the time and effort...anyway, in my sch, cip is called REACH instead of the old boring name... REACH sound soo much better..reaching out to everyone in the community...One good news for me... I , as one of the 8 in my sch(i think), get into the NTU business competition..super lucky..I'm also glad that my contribution of ideas to spice up the essay (the essay determines whether a grp of 4 can get into the competiton) paid off! Thanks to my great GP cher... the ideas came from GP lessons..oh ya..he's a super funny cher and his eng is thumb u p..a rather young(20 gg to 30) cher with soo much experience...just like tms's mrs tan regardless of age... I hope to win stg from the competition cos this is one of the grand business competitions of the year. There won't be any chance to take part nxt year cos it will be for the J1..Another interesting thg to me is tt..there is an interior staircase linking the staffrooms to the general office in my sch...I just knew tt only..I want to see it...lol...gtg
I shall see you all tml=pThursday, October 19, 2006
haiyo. everyone rushin op sia. hmm actually my schl hols kind of start le lar. don nid go back except for lettin tcher c e progress of op. yep. but nxt sat gt uni tok. lots of things juz suddenly happen lar. somehow i juz gt v.tired 2day.. i cant keep track of wats happenin arnd me cos somehow my mind wld juz blank out n i wld only rmb tt i hav 2 play comp n work out some timetable. ya. evr since e release of tt results, nth seems 2 go rite 4 me lar. i don really hav e mood 2 do anythin. even when i'm in front of tv, my soul seems 2 rush 2 e land of god-noes-whr. in maple, i juz simply train over n over again. haiz. i juz wan tis sat 2 come asap. n i hope everythin will b put rite after tis sat. ppl, i miss u all alot although its juz last sun we met. tis week seems 2 go 4va n i really cant take it anymore. seriously i'm exhausted le. oya. i'm considerin tuition rite nw lo... but i'm nt sure if i wld b wastin $$. but somehow i feel insecure. in a dilemma rite nw n its really hard 2 decide. n ya, was rushin arnd askin 4 marks 2day. only 1/2 more mark will push my grade up. nidless 2 say i didnt succeed. hope tml will b a better day bahzhey sh.. paiseh 4 smsin u juz nw. cos reallly nided someone 2 tok 2 but somehow i don wan 2 c any reply cos all i wan is a listener. thnx manms(ok. my frien said i sound depressed. haha)
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
okk. nt sure whether all of u did well tis time. but so far me n sh were nt really satisfied with our results... simply feel lyk swearin @ it lar. but yea, nt 2 e extent of vulgarity bahz. anw. its seriously sick lar. mon was lyk e hell day 4 me. n my eyes were simply swollen throughout e day lo. abit paiseh 2 say tt i actually cried 3 times lar. tot i cld really hold my tears but most unfortunately my frien called me n my tears juz gushed out w/o waitin 4 my brain 2 signal a "yes". wth. so i lost it all =(i had most confidence in bio. n i had been imaginin myself receivin great results 4 it since i finished e paper. it was nt tt i knew how 2 do but juz tt i put it alot of effort in it, @ least much more than e rest... but it still ended up with me as 1 of e bottom few. e class list with marks written on it was passed around. i felt damn depressed n sad lar. suddenly my brain was lyk " omg.. omg.. m i seein things or wat?!?! i was practically so stunned" but regardless of how unwillin i was 2 accept tis fact, e truth remains. yea. so 4 e whole day, even after i went home, i juz went straight 2 my bed n cried. n i stopped cryin nt bcos i was ok, but simply cos my tears dried up... its juz a super sad feelin but i cld no longer cry it out. e rest of e subj didnt really meet my expectation as well. but well @ least my maths n chem improve by 2 grades, while econs remains lyk mid yr, juz tt i improve 5 marks. overall guess i made an improvement bahz, juz tt i didnt reap wat i sowed. wats most disheartenin is when u heard ppl sayin things tt hurt. its nt exactly pinpoint @ u but in a way, its v.sore 2 e ears of someone who did badly despite givin 100% of efforts. so ytd, i was mentally n physically tired. i only pray 4 my gp 2 pass so i don get retained. sh, somehow i tink we tried our best n tt's all it matter. one of my friens did quite well.. but she's still complainin bout her results n worryin bout it. i nv really console her, cos i tot i shld b e one 2 b consoled... but afterall wats thr 2 console when u tried ur best but dint make it?? shld it b lyk "try harder nxt time lo." (but tis is ur best le isnt it?? wat can b better??) yea.. so mayb we did our rev e wrong way bahz. lets all "Go Go Jia You". cos i tink we've nt fully exploited our potential n i believe we'll improve further e nxt yr.minsi. [temasek--resilience spirit] JY
Sunday, October 15, 2006
oops. supposedly wld blog more after promos. but it's juz e opp larz. hmm. v.tired nw. actually today bb abit crap lar. lyk dint really play much n all e conversation kept goin back 2 AHS. hah. bit weird lar huh. mayb gossips alwaz happen when a bunch of "ah-mas" juz sat around with nth betta 2 do. LOL.anw. anw. tink i really go all bonkers le. its lyk everyday muz play 2 rounds (6 hrs) of comp games. yea so i wld really divide e time up btwn 3 games (includin maple)... then nw my dear old bro went 2 borrow tis warcraft frm his frien. so tink i wld learn dota soon =P. after tt i wld really nt hav much time left 4 other things liao lar. n yea.. my frien lent me so many korean dramas. then i'm still waitin 4 tt "goong"... haha. seriously i wld go n hav a vision check soon, juz in case my eyesight worsen. n mayb i shld pray hard tt my comp don break down after being switched on 4 12 hrs straight a day. financially, i'm definitely nt stressed up. its tis mental prob i get. cos yea, tml's e big big day. its either dead or alive. n i'm worried bout my gp more than anythin else. eng lar. i've nv been gd @ it n wats worse is tt gp is e toughest paper 4 tis promos. fail=retain. super duper worried n scared lo. how i wish my form tcher wld call me up n tell me i passed. sh** (if only i cld)tis comin sat might b e last free sat 4 me all e way till weeks later. haiz. can almost imagine e hectic life again. AGAIN!!! n ya, frankly speakin i don look forward 2 meetin anyone in schl lar. feel so sian every sun cos juz e thought of e comin weekdays really puts me off. arghok. b4 i log off. hc, congrats hor. haha. u really really heng sia. hah. hope 2 cya all soon =)minsi [ i'll miss my comp. i'll miss my games. i'll miss everythin ]
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
finally..decide to blog a short post..life is not perfect! pw's wr is still hanging somewhere..
edit and edit..it seems to be never ending..hate it.. still got op n i_r...having a sad life doing all these after promos.. 3 simple terms yet require one to put in countless of efforts and time..
waiting for the fun-filled wkend to arrive asap...shall tok continously abt anythg w u all...except maple..haha..
nxt mon will be the saddest day after promos..gp and maths results..sian..can oni close one eye and hope for the best..
CIP...tution? E is v keen abt it..as for mi, i dont mind...but results wont be goood enough to provide my services..lol..unless it is pure sciences(maybe)..better than lang or maths.. wad abt gg library?
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when life is all fun rite nw. omg. i wish i hav a couple more hrs so tt i cld continue playin till nxt morn. aiya. y izit only 24 hrs a day lar. so little. NT ENUFF!!!ok. today so fun sia. we took random buses n alight after random no. of stops. aiya. all in all, e whole trip is soo random lar. so we took 14 n alight dono how many stops later n ended up @ parkmall. followed by some bus n we ended @ another place which i seriously nv seen b4... then a couple more buses n i ended up @ some mac reservoir. ya. last destination happen 2 b near my grandma's veg stall. well. some traditional lkk tinkin made her call my mum n said tt i brought my bf 2 c her. wah a case of mistaken identity lar. anw... i dint bother 2 exp further since my mum noe. yep. my grandma leh... wadeva... i juz heck. hmm. anw today is quite fun yea.oh no. my classmate has overtaken me in maple. sh** muz bia liao. then my frien lent me some other games. diao. nw bz playin. haiz. minsi>>life nw is almost perfect =)
Monday, October 09, 2006
wahah.ok. tink my mood really changes fast. anw. so happy. cos tj finishin exam tml!! yea. so i can finally meet u all. wah so eager leh. hah. 2ndly, happy bday hc!!! 3rdly, i can finally fulfil my 1/2 yr dream. yep. tot it was a stupid idea initially. but found 2 ppl who agreed tt it's cool!!! hah. hmm so i'm gona fulfil tis dream of mine tml. so glad. ok noe i'm slow. (i noe u all esp hq is goin 2 say tt). but i've finished e samsoon show. hah. still gt wat other nice shows ar.. muz recommend me leh. cos i intend 2 watch all durin tis hols.when life is nth but crap. actually nw i don even noe wat life is all bout liao. 2 fulfil all aspirations n juz die while feelin "contented"? or 2 light up e lives of others as quoted frm many famous ppl. or wat?!?!?! after tis promo battle, i kind of lose my direction in life. in e past, life is bout muggin hard n waitin 2 b promoted 2 e nxt lvl, juz lyk e staircase. u climb up n up. n thr'll b monsters 2 get u down. u might fall but u'll nv reach e bottom. u'll nv b e worst. but e monsters can make u their slave. so if u choose 2 stop climbin n give up, u'll b entrapped 4eva. despite all e difficulties n tournaments, n even if u fall badly, don give up... u'll reach e destination 1 day though no 1 on earth can eva reach e peak juz lyk no 1 can eva reach e ground floor. cos we dono wats e max each human can go 2.but. when someone is juz born, which part of e staircase will he start climbin frm? if u r richer u wld b @ e higher lvl?? izit meant 2 b tis way? mayb i'm tinkin too much. mayb i cld juz stick 2 my old way of tinkin n continue 2 make believe muggin does help. (ya rite). ok. gtg n chat with my ex tutor. hah. cya ppl soon. ms
Thursday, October 05, 2006
thought today wld b high... ok wadeva i'm super disappointed with my maths performance. thrs a kind of feelin when u no longer feel alive.. n thr's nt even a tinge of happiness. n u don feel u wld eva b happy again.. i'm feelin tt nw. no matter how i tried, e memory still persists in my mind. i cant get rid of it, much as i wan 2, desperately. ms[a bottomless pit. all i c is a "down"... n i m juz fallin down.... deeper n deeper till i cld no longer c my own existence]
