hihis~ im back.. from a busy n tough week.. sch's going tough now n it'll only get tougher.. well, its our destiny: study. But at least, i feel a lot better. After speech day, after mardi gras, secondary n jc yrs interwined n i now lived in a mixed-up world. Having seeing so many ppl from my past n present in two consecutive days is kinda unbeilevable.. but at least i noe im not dreaming.. e ppl tt make up my world exists.. they really do.. they r all around me juz sepertated by a street, a school, a class.. its up to me to feel their presence.. they didnt disappear.. they r always there.. its a relieved..
now.. guitar.. tt problematic cca tt ve soo many practices.. i cannot cope lahz.. always do hw until late into the night.. somemore make me spent so much money.. parctices hours long enough to make me slp still muz practice at home n memorize chords.. now u noe y i miss IT so much.. cannot help it.. i appreciate e slacky days.. guitar's making me scared.. i cannot face a lot of things esp e music.. perserverance needs a lot determination.... do i really have it? On the day i found fear, i ve been looking for courage... im now solely surviving on my motivations.. juz hope they wont die off or i'll beng kui..
struggling zelcy
