It's nt I. It's WE.

Sunday, April 30, 2006

hihi... hahha soo long nv blog.. cos blog gt prob mahz... then u all leh... don even bother 2 change it. ok... wadeva. mayb 1 day i'll create my v.own blog... cos it's soooo dead here.... haiz.

aiya...actually nth 2 say larz. gp bloggin shld b a 2-way kind of thing. sian.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

yoz.. as usual, tis is me.... haha.. juz came home frm schl... wahz.. tink i put on more weight than eva le... MORE WEIGHT larz!!!!!!!! sian... aniwae.. thr's tis chinese trip 2 shanghai lor... i wanna go.. so many choices leh.. haha... but i tink i might try 4 e one 2 silicon valley 1st.. haha... well i'm juz despo 2 leave spore.. cos i simply cant imagine my life in spore durin june hols... other than mug... wat else??

ok.. today gt interact again.. hav missed it twice... damn sad.. todae went n chat with e kids but we did do work as well larz.. they were kinda playful larz.. but overall if u try 2 mix with 'em, u'll find 'em fun de... its kinda meaningful 2 spend e afternoon thr.. =) ok.. btw i had my chem lect test liao lor.. it was damn stressful n scary larz!!! my hand was shakin all e way.. it was as if it was o's lor... my mind blanked out totally when i gt my testpaper.. n while i was still ponderin over e 1st qn i could hear my alot of ppl flippin over 2 e nxt page.. i believe tt many ppl had proceeded 2 e 4th or 5th page when i juz flipped 2 e 3rd page... it was damn sad altogether... juz pray i wont get last. otherwise i wld had really let mrs tay down. haiz.

so sian ah.. my PI gt probs lor... gotta make it more complex... muz GENERATE MORE IDEAS... i dono how many times hav i heard of tis... it sounds so irritatin 2 my ears nw... who don wan larz... its juz a matter of whether i can anot larz.... haiz. aniwae tml chem mock spa skill c n d... skill b had been done last week.. i cld almost imagine lee's face while markin my paper... haha. cos my results differ by 2.0 cm^3 lor... so i juz faked thru. conclusion: my ans is atrocious n ridiculous. haha. okk.... tml shld b dead day 4 me as welll... gt bio make-up. haiz ^2.... week 8 econs test... i'm still laggin lyk hell... omg. mayb a red mark will do some gd in wakin me up.

ok. $$ nt enuff!!!! lots of stuff 2 buy n lots of tix 2 pay 4... haiz. i'm on e edge of crumplin down... my hw is accumulatin larz. n i'm so tired everyday. wazzup with me n my chiongness. b4 chem test i was still accessin e web in my schl 2 look 4 opport 2 go overseas larz. so diaoz... nvm... lets start with one thing @ a time... frm today on, i muz b less blur n more meticulous... tt's 1 of e many requirements of accomplishin wat i wana b. yea sth lyk tt...

gtg.. minsi.. JY 4va

Saturday, April 15, 2006

hihis~ im back.. from a busy n tough week.. sch's going tough now n it'll only get tougher.. well, its our destiny: study. But at least, i feel a lot better. After speech day, after mardi gras, secondary n jc yrs interwined n i now lived in a mixed-up world. Having seeing so many ppl from my past n present in two consecutive days is kinda unbeilevable.. but at least i noe im not dreaming.. e ppl tt make up my world exists.. they really do.. they r all around me juz sepertated by a street, a school, a class.. its up to me to feel their presence.. they didnt disappear.. they r always there.. its a relieved..

now.. guitar.. tt problematic cca tt ve soo many practices.. i cannot cope lahz.. always do hw until late into the night.. somemore make me spent so much money.. parctices hours long enough to make me slp still muz practice at home n memorize chords.. now u noe y i miss IT so much.. cannot help it.. i appreciate e slacky days.. guitar's making me scared.. i cannot face a lot of things esp e music.. perserverance needs a lot determination.... do i really have it? On the day i found fear, i ve been looking for courage... im now solely surviving on my motivations.. juz hope they wont die off or i'll beng kui..

struggling zelcy

Thursday, April 13, 2006

yoe... haiz... so bz still come 2 blog.. u all leh... haiz... remind till i sian liao... ah 4get it...

aniwae ytd was realli happy sia... i went home n cried lo... cos i cant help nt cryin when i tot of e past... kinda missed it alot...n i was super touched by e homeliness i felt in tms.... all e tchers made me feel i was, n am part of tms... mayb u all will nt understand... haha... tt medallion was a proof of my existence in tms, n it realli reminded me of e days we mugged hard 4 o's... haiz. met alot of ppl as well... those whom i noe but nv realli tok 2 'em b4... but nvreless, i still felt happy 2 c 'em... n i met hengky too... soo long nvr saw him... but he's still e same larz... haha.... it was then i realised tt i realli missed him too... our friendship actualli started in sec 4 although we were in same class 4 4 yrs... its kinda sad tt i only saw him again ytd... haiz... i told my mum tt if i o's restarted all ovr again, if i gt 8 pts on my result slip again n i cld rechoose e schls again, i'm nt sure if i wld still choose vjc.... thus, i'm realli glad 2 hav chosen e schls alrdy... otherwise i might realli hav given up my asp.

okk.... aniwae, i gt back my bio test le... :P so happy leh!!! cos i gt 4th in class... haha... but e marks werent exactly awesome larz... 16/27... its sort of juz passed rite?? e highest was 17.5... so i'm realli satisfied liao.. plus i didnt noe e test was on mon.. so i didnt study on sun... haha... ok. hope my bio continue to pass with flyin colors!!!

today gt sports day lo... of my clique of 9, 2 went 4 chem symposium... 1 went 2 do work in e canteen... n another 1 went 2 meet her friens... so left 5 of us... haha... of cos larz... we wont sit @ e grandstand n do nth but cheer de... so we ended up eatin in e canteen.. after tt we went 2 sit by e runnin track 2 watch e runnin take place.... some time later when we realli gt pretty sian, we went 2 e staircase which gave us a view of e main entrance whr e security guard was... haha.. can guess rite... all of us were despo 2 leave larz... but e security was damn tight... some students attempted 2 leave but had 2 turn back in e end... so 5 of us were standin thr crappin on silly yet hilarious ways 2 leave... we saw a gp of students hitchin a ride frm someone's car and they left successfully... so we pinned our hopes on a company's van... however no one dared 2 ask 4 tt free ride and our dreams were dashed... well we were nt e only ones... thr were many standin on e tree hse lookin 4 any single chance 2 escape... haha.... aniwae, we left soon after seein a tcher walkin towards us... guess wat we did?? we went 2 walk one round around e schl 2 look 4 means of escape... it was then i realised tt our schl had 5 doors altogther... 5 larz!! omg... haha... thr's once we saw a guy climbin ovr e backdoor n jump off... well he left... but we cant do it of cos... thr's tis prickly lookin thing attached 2 e top of e backdoor... damn scary... tt guy muz hav alot of experience liao lo... hah... ok larz.. 5 doors but nt a single one was unlocked... haiz.

ok.. enuff of tis schl stuff... nxt week gt tis 6-topic chem test larz... haiz. wat 2 do??? mug lor... sian.. cant even go out with ppl... aargh

JY rox.. minsi

Sunday, April 09, 2006

so sad these few days... haiz... tt dejected feelin keep remainin in my heart... i cant get it off me.... =( well guess it all started when i heard xing guang you le yuan by twins on air tt day.... e pic of MI rm flashes into my heart larz... then i keep tinkin of those days... haiz... n worst thing is tt i cant get tt pic off me... all e scenarios keep replayin in my mind... mayb tt time i kept replayin those songs so nw when i heard these songs, i wld tink of MI rm... haiz... realli realli miss e gd old times....

tt PI larz... v.wat lo.... haiz.. realli dono wat i'm doin bout it...evythin is so crappy.... haiz... nxt wk gotta b a super duper bz n sian week lor... but e thing i look forward 2 most is speech day!!!! =) but sad thing is tt i hav 2 return 2 schl asap cos i nid 2 attend a law faculty tok... my asp. mahz...hhaa... lookin backward, i realli give up alot of things 4 my asp... its a damn sad thing i guess... haiz^2... ok larz... if only e friens were as true as u guys... some r soooo damn realistic... well, mayb rich ppl r lyk tt bahz... alwaz kan4 bian3 ppl de.... wth larz.. sicko.

ok i tink i get agitated too easily nwadays... but i'm nt goin 2 b lyk those who stick 2 friens even though they noe e friens sux... well, i'm me n i'm goin 2 stay away frm those idiotic n arrogant brats... aargh... cant believe i noe 'em... yucks!!!!!

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

haiz~ came to blog today coz i in bad mood den want to find someone to talk to....and i noe that only you guys are my real confidantes and mental support.... today haf mock nafa den i failed my pull-ups, sobz.....cannot even do one den is lk my morale dropped until super low....=( just can't stop myself from crying and i really wish one of you is by my side to comfort me at that time....really miss you guys alot, hope to see you guys real soon okie? also i realised that jc friends are not as close as secondary friends except for a few, coz they tend to hurt ur feelings more unknowingly as compared to sec friends and that really hurts ur pride, and most importantly ur heart....hai~just hope to finish this 2 years of jc life as quickly as possible den can meet you all in uni....i want to be reunited with you guys!!!

~~~I LOVE AMZ!!! and I MISS YOU GUYS!!!~~~~

Saturday, April 01, 2006

ytd was juz gr8!!! after a tired day @ schl, i went back 2 tms with elaine, sh, eve n connie 2 get e yr bk which i didnt buy... haha... aniwae we met our fellow cca mates... e feelin rox more than it had evr did b4... i felt a special sense of belongin 2 e cca when i saw some of e members discussin bout some camp stuff... rmb i had said tt i wld nvr go 4 e cca camp once i left tms, but nw, guess i wld really consider carefully on whether i wld go 4 it.... cos i simply luv evythin tt tms had given me 4 e last 4 yrs....

well, in e day amidst e bz lifestyle of rushin here n thr, no one wld hav thought of all e past times, be it happy or sad, but when its late in2 e nite, esp when i felt alone, all e past memories wld flow back... 've been readin blogs of some friens, n i juz came 2 realise tt every single day of e sec schl life was a precious pg of my own diary.... e days we gathered in e morn @ e parade sq 2 gossip n copy hw... e days whr we wld approach tchers 4 help in studies... e days when some of us cried in schl upon knowin tt our idols hav been kicked out frm e superstar competition.... e days when we cracked lame jokes n laughed 4 no reasons.... e days when we ate sweets behind e tcher's back... e days we planned bout ponnin our ccas... e days we scolded our tchers bhind their backs... e days we grumbled bout e low quality of food in e canteen.... e days we endure e "torture" frm pe tchers.... but nvreless, we've survived, n hav grown 2 bcum more mature n realistic.... we r no longer e young innocent kids we were used 2 b... tms has taught us alot... n i hav become more outspoken than i've eva been in pri schl... i was no longer one who did nt dare 2 look into a person's eyes while tokin.... thru e tis way up camp, i m sure of my goals... i m confident of my future... i noe wat i wan.... n all these r decided in tms, a schl which i did nt really lyk in my sec 1-3 days... its only in yr 2005 when i started 2 lyk my schl... e tchers, e friens i made durin those yrs will owaez b betta than my jc friens n tchers.... e ppl who help n watch me grow, e ppl who teach me e way of life, i really appreciate everything they did 4 me... n i really hope i can meet such ppl in jc.... n i hope jc ppl will nt b too realistic... which i tink they r rite nw... n most imptly, i hope tt my form tcher can disappear frm my life... (i really hate her)....

okk... back 2 e topic... thr's tis jr in my sec schl cca who gt tis young bro look..... haha... so cute... aniwae after leavin tms, we went 2 eastpt 2 eat kfc... n we met mr tan... oya... kenneth was thr as well... so we chatted bout schl life n asked mr tan bout e tms concert @ kallang theatre tt nite... we gt e tix @ $15 each... tt nite we went 2 watch e Brothers performance... it was nice though i didnt fully understand e plot... but overall its touchy.. perhaps bcos of e sadness i still hav 4 leavin tms... after tt while i was waitin 4 my dad 2 come, i saw some tchers leadin e students 2 e buses... n as usual, mr cuthbert was thr usherin e students... e sec life.. haiz

vj may b e schl i really wan 2 go 2... i really look up 2 e schl... it rep my future...but sec schl is e one tt'll remain deep in my heart....

oyea... 2 frien out in tis world, pls stop doin tt cos u really get on2 my nerves... e day i stopped goin out with u will b e day when i'm sick of ur realism....

JY rox,minsi