friends (: AMZ rox 4eva
idiot!!!! my worst fear came true. I was back to where i started. No change. No difference. No improvements for the better. I knew hope was hopeless. I knew no pt praying. And now eveything was gone. Too late to do anything, to late to change anything. ARgggghhh... wth!!!! wish tt i could cry, fall upon my knees, find a way 2 lie, bout a home i'll nvr c....
haixx.. im tired... tired of hoping n hoping n hoping for e impossible, im tired to get disappointed again n again n again, i hate tt kind of wu nai de xin qin. I wanna do sth abt it n yet reality is pushing you rite back n yelling at you rite in yr face "forget it!!!" So how? Shld i stay as it is, as destiny wans me to be or be myself n fight for wat i wan? im taking a step at a time, to see how far i can go, to see how i can even defy fate....
it hurts... a lot... to face ordeal after ordeal, telling us to be resilisent when so many things r happening n so many tough choices we ve to make n so much hw to do... to force me away from my comfort zone n force me to stand up againist fate... it hurts so much tt i wanna cry... but one day it'll all end... one day we nid to wry no more abt hws, tests, lessons, sch n everything tt's making me miserable now... one day... i wish n wait n pray for tt day, for sb to come n take me away from here...
zelcy
