now only 11.30... didnt go schl 2day....hhaa....but its nt really pon schl bahz...cos today gt bio quiz...then yesterday gt cca n i reached home @ 9pm....i was feelin lyk pukin yesterday due 2 e dizziness which i dono y it kinda happen too...anyway, i had 2 study bio n i slept only @ 10.30 pm...sounds quite early but i woke up @ 4.30am 2 study bio which i could nt finish....but i felt reallly sleepy n as i tried 2 ctrl n keep myself awake...i felt lyk faintin again.....so i went back 2 slp lor....n its lyk i really cld nt wake up.....haiz....so in e end, i didnt go 2 schl....this kind of feelin is lyk so sick lor...i mean its lyk nt sick but keep feelin unwell...i dono how 2 exp too.....felt rather stressed out oso..tml gotta go back 2 tms n get back results....i dono wat else 2 feel other than scared yet excited bout it...excited in e sense of noein whether i cld remain in vjc anot....
anyway..... i've promised myself frm tml, tt's gettin my results back onwards, i'll stop slackin n get back 2 my old self.. e hardworkin self b4 i took my prelims n o's last yr....ya....i've been laggin in hw n lectures tt i don even understand a word of....n i'm pretty sure i'll b e last in class if i continue 2 slack....so ya, perhaps i'll start muggin....haha....oso, regardin my class's disunity... yesterday kenneth said sth which i really found quite true n inspirin...its nt whether u r enthu in e class tt matters....all tt's impt is tt u r happy, even if u r nt tt popular in e class but at least u have a bunch of friens...it beats havin no frien @ all... i thought bout it on e way home n realised tt 4 a class 2 b united, it nids fate n effort by BOTH parties....it doesnt make any difference if only me n my few other friens keep tinkin of ways 2 solve e prob but others don really pitch in....yea.... bsides, i can still b enthu with my friens juz lyk in AMZ....so, e most impt thing is 2 b happy n hardworkin when schl starts again on tues....ok...this is my aim 4 this yr....
ok...still felt quite scared n worried today....n 1 thing i don understand....y do ppl alwaz c me as hardworkin...i tink i really slack lyk hell 4 this 1 1/2 month but my friens said tt i'm hardworkin....haiz....they even said tt i cld sure remain in vjc de....i wish it's true la...but wat if it isnt?!?! wont i feel disappointed then.....nvm....now i cld hear weilian's songs frm my neighbour's hse...y izit tt he cld b so popular??? haiz....4get it.....
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